The last few months have passed like sand dropping through an hourglass. When you watch it seems infinitely slow. But when you look away and are drawn back time has marched on.
I wondered how to come back to this space where I share my story and connect with people. I wondered if I even should. But truth be known I missed it. In the last few weeks I keep finding myself thinking oh I should blog that. I should email someone that. Oh so and so would like that. So I figure it is time.
It is hard to put into words where I have been. What's been happening.
I think I'll just start from now. Where we are these days and leave where we have been behind. I hope you don't mind.
The not so grand - I'm recovering from surgery. A very unwanted hysterectomy that I eventually came to terms with because as my oncologist so succinctly put it. I've told you twice already that you have to. I won't tell you the third time you know why? Cause you'll be dead. He's never had a great bedside manner. I start on aromotose inhibitors December the 12th. I've been fighting them too. I even took my battle weary well research friends Paul and Rhonda with me for multiple consults to argue but we have given up and I'm doing as I'm told.
No more googling researching thinking for me it's too exhausting. It's been more than two years since diagnosis and I have a fresh slew of wounds and I'm well and truly over the "journey". For those who know cancer speak you may wonder why we are now heading into an oestrogen positive treatment regime after being on a triple negative. I know I did. The short answer is to be sure. The only thing I'm sure of you can never be sure.
So we trudge on. Some days are far better than others but I'm no pioneer that's the case for everyone.
I do have lots of grand stories to tell too :)
I'll be back soon with some I promise :)