Next week I get to type Round Five and I haven't done a round five before - but this week is Round Four.
Hasn't been a great week- I checked out I think you have to sometimes.
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This is me - I've been the empty side. I'm still there you can see me - but I'm just not working the same way.
I had an oncologist appointment. They are interesting to say the least. My onc is very straight forward.
He always greets me with Hi Tamar you look fantastic ( he says it to everyone) How's things going.
And I say oh great loving the whole process.
Good to hear he says.
Now lets see how you are really going
LOL. SO how am I really going. Hating every single second.
Seriously. I'm not a hate person. Its a wasted emotion but far out I hate this. Hate hate hate it.
Round four sees an additional chemo added. I start Carboplatin - which now brings my chemo "flavours" to the grand total of five. Richard says I'm greedy wanting to try them all.
Carbo is used for a variety of reasons. One being ovarian cancer. My tumour markers for that were elevated - and now they have gone back down. That means that the chemo is working and my ovaries are on the to watch list. I think their days are numbered.
So an additional chemo may mean additional or increased side effects - JOY oh JOY- or not lets hope not.
I know. I'm hilarious. My favourite line from Mr Onc was you know Tamar some of may patients are 80 years old and they sail through - you may be lucky.
Awesome. I'm feeling 80 does that count?
Most annoying though is my loss of Tuesday morning which was my happiest time of the week. Now I have to head in by 11.30 to hook up earlier. aggghh the injustice.
Some more blog posts coming later this morning I have recipes to share and our chinese new year celebrations - cause as you know even though I'm checked out life is continuing at a whirling pace around me- Blink because January just sailed past.
